Current mood:	aggravated
Current music:	Kansas - 'Dust In The Wind'

I Hate Me
Just when things start looking up again yet another piece of badluck comes along to spit in my face. -__-; Unfortunately looks like my good old lizard might be seriously sick so I'm going to see about getting him over to the vet tomorrow during my lunch hour, seeing as I don't want him to also go the same way that good old Larva did. He's just started acting rather bizarre recently, he refuses to move around much, barely opens his eyes and won't even try to chomp on other people like he normally does. Needless to say I'm rather worried about the little guy so hopefully it doesn't turn out too serious.

Other than that same shit different day. I just feel really...worn out I guess you could say, I feel like I'm almost not all there anymore as if my mind finally decided to take a permanent vacation if you know what I mean. I barely seem to notice what's going on around me anymore, I don't really even seem to recognize other peoples' faces on the street when I see them, whether it's because I don't consider them worth remembering or important enough I'll never know. But some days I swore I'm losing my fronging mind as the days just sort of drift by me without me really taking notice or 'interacting' with the events going on around me, almost like I'm just a sort of passerby.

Maybe I am finally losing it, my mind now more preoccupied with my own imagination than anything else anymore. All I can really think of now is the characters inside my head, how their personalities are, what they'll act like, what their backstories are, etc. Maybe I'm just dedicated, but I find that even when I'm at work I'm always daydreaming about such things so I end up feeling like I'm walking around in a haze all day. But I think I like things better that way, how I don't have to put up with humanity's stupidity for long and can instead take off to my own little world and just will them all to die extremely painful bloody deaths.

A real thing that's been pissing me off recently being the whole abuse of Iraqi prisoners by American soldiers. Don't get me wrong, I'm no freaking tree-hugging hippie or anything, but honestly bastards who treat other people like that (as they did in the Vietnam War) need to have their asses handed over to the Iraqi vigilanttes and let them do WTF ever they want with them. And I'm not buying that load of bullshit the army is trying to feed to us about how the soldiers 'weren't trained' for such a situation, go @#$% yourself dumbass, it doesn't take a rocket scientist to figure out 'Hey! We shouldn't be doing this' or that it's wrong. Hell, I have no @#$%ing training in the army branch and know better, guess that makes me a helluva lot better soldier than the bastards they sent over there who are acting like total dumbasses and making the rest of this country look like stupidasses ourselves.

Now thanks to these geniuses innocent americans are getting killed over there in retaliation. @#$% you military jerk-offs who were involved with the abuse of those prisoners, I say we hand over your sorry asses to the Iraqi people and let them rip you apart so no innocent people have to suffer.


Again, @#$% you military pansies.


Ok, I'm done for the day...maybe I should put this under a 'rant' warning, but I'll just leave it as is for now.





Peace out,




-Raz